I have joined a gym. Yup. Something I really did not think I would do. Or wanted to do. I am not a gym type person. But I do love a treadmill.
And we no longer have one. We DID have one. And then it died. Then we had an elliptical for, oh, about 4 months but it wasn’t the greatest quality and we had many issues with it so it was returned.
And in my head I wanted another treadmill at home.
But then my husband joined a gym in the next town over. And the price was fantastic. $39/month. Open every day. Includes all classes. So I went on his guest passes a couple of times and really loved walking on the treadmill. And then I did the math of buying a treadmill vs. gym pass. The gym pass won.
I still AM very self conscious at the gym. I find a treadmill to the side and back and I put my headphones on and I walk. Yup. I walk. I walk slow, I walk fast, I walk at low inclines and at high inclines. But I walk. A few years ago I ran quite often but since then I have had issues with my back that I don’t want to repeat so I have resolved to just walk and protect myself.
Because of this, in my head, I didn’t FIT in at the gym. I wasn’t really part of these people who I was surrounded by. Those who ran fluidly and effortlessly. Those who lifted, who rowed, who biked without sitting down.
I was just the girl who walked. Funny how we categorize ourselves.
But then an interesting thing happened to me the other day. I was walking while my husband did his full hour-or-so workout. A woman came to the treadmill next to mine and started up and began running. So for about 45 minutes or so we were side by side but in our own little ipod filled heads.
Once I hit the hour mark, she looked over and asked me “How much longer are you going?”. Surprised, I checked out where my husband was and what part of his workout he was in and said “I think about another 10 minutes”. She said “Good. I need another 10 minutes and you have pushed me.”
What the wha? I pushed YOU??? I the girl who walks?
And then I realized as I left that day, that I often do that in other aspects of my life. Discount myself. Which really isn’t fair. I mean, if ANYONE should be in my corner, it should be ME right?
So for now on, I want to own my own accomplishments.
I am the girl who goes to the gym and KILLS it, walking on the treadmill. ;)
Do you discount yourself?